Hey there, I’m Renata!
My story begins in my childhood. Mine was littered with trauma and neglect.
The environment I grew up in taught me that:
-Life is hard and struggling in it is normal
-Money is hard to come by and difficult to manage
-12 hour work days or 2 jobs is necessary to get by
-Relationships look like arguing and hurtful words
-Asking for help is a bad thing
-No one understands what I’m going though
These were all repeated experiences I had in my childhood that became the beliefs I internalized as a child that then molded the decisions I made as an adult. Through several painful detours (strays from my most-aligned path) I became very good at several things.
1: My relationship with myself. This included learning about my dark spots – like my childhood trauma, limiting beliefs surrounding finances and career, and the insecurities and low self-worth that stemmed from them. It also included learning about my very bright spots – like my burning desire to help other people who are going through a similar experience to what I went through, my ability to make people smile and feel safe, and my love for experiencing new adventures.
2: How to replace bad habits with healthy ones. I treaded water for awhile because although I knew I wanted to make a change and heal, I didn’t know how, or where to even begin. Small, consistent daily actions helped me to heal and evolve into a fuller, more whole version of myself.
3: How to listen to my intuition. This is where my spiritual practice really started to take off. I learned how to get quite, become still, and listen to my inner guidance. I found that the more I did this, the more what I needed flowed to me, and the direction I wanted to go became more and more clear.
4: How to use compassion and forgiveness to heal. I had a lot of work to do letting go of resentment and anger towards my parents, my abusers and myself. Truly embodying these allowed me to take back the power they were holding over me and were and still are a key piece to being in integrity with my values and also having the the people and experiences that are important to me in my life.